Tuesday, January 20, 2009

I'm Really Starting to Like Him!

I've always loved him. From the moment he was conceived I've loved him more than I ever imagined that I could love anyone, but finally I actually like him. The first three months or so of his short little life I was almost convinced I'd given birth to a gremlin. A screaming, crying, never satisfied gremlin. I spent my days on the couch with this little person attached to my boob, crying if it ever left his mouth. He cried ALL. THE. TIME. If he wasn't sleeping or eating he was crying, and believe me, he wasn't sleeping often. I paced the floors until my feet threatened to fall off, I rocked until the screws literally fell out of my rocking chair. I slept standing up. I prayed. A lot. And I cried right along with him some nights.

Until all at once, my red-in-the-face screaming gremlin suddenly turned into a real boy. This age is so much fun. He is crawling and into everything! He is sitting up on his own, pulling up on the couch, interested in anything and everything and I'm having a blast! I love watching him explore the smallest piece of lint as if he were a world renowned scientist. He loves rolling water bottles across the floor and shredding magazines. He follows me everywhere. He knows the sound of bathwater running and crawls at lightning speed to the bathroom. It is so refreshing to look at the world through his eyes. I find myself noticing things that I never paid attention to before like the small sliver of sunshine on the carpet first thing in the morning (or the dog hair for that matter). He laughs. I'm almost the funniest person in the whole world, second only to Josh. That smile makes every minute of sleep deprivation and near deafness worth it. I never imagined such a reward. He hardly ever cries anymore, now only when he has had enough and is ready for a nap. He is so amazing (and adorable, but you already knew that).

I've never been so in love.




*Trevor is 5 months and 3 days old*

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

WOW!!He is really starting to go.Can't wait to see how the two boys do together. I think it will be interesting to watch..

Persey said...

Hi! My name is Janet and I came across your blog on two week wait.com (my alias there is "StarfishSomnambulist").

I liked all your blogs but I especially loved this one. I loved how it was so honest and touching - very poignant, very well said.

I am sorry to hear the first couple of months were so rough, but glad that you are reaping the rewards of your hard work. :-) And he is SO cute!

On a side note, I have family in Cherokee Village - I thought Arkansas was just beautiful and the people were so nice!